Sadness exploded, madness creeped in.
My mind became a torn schizophrenic enemy.
My heart ached. My stress levels spiked. I googled if I was going to die.
Heartbreak is real.
Emotionally it’s crippling, physically it’s debilitating.
It’s the breaking of self, the pulling apart of every insecurity that you tried to keep nicely tucked away.
It’s a death – a death of love, partnership, trust, home.
And it even pushes your psyche to extremes.
…and not just for a day, a week, a month – no. It stays. It rapes your soul.
So what do you do? How do you move on? How do you even live, doing the most basic of things? How do you go about yourself in a town full of memories? Where do you even begin?
I’ll tell you right now that it’s not easy – in fact if you’re currently experiencing this pain, it is one of the hardest things you must go through – but listen to these words…
Never give up.
I will tell you this…it does get easier.
Gradually your breakdowns won’t last as long.
Gradually you will learn how to love yourself again.
You will learn how to forgive, for the sake of your own soul.
And you will learn how to be a stronger person than you ever were before.
But it’s not easy. Often times, the best things for you in life often are.
I’m currently in the sixth month of my healing process. I actually had a breakdown earlier today, and you know what? It felt extreme – I got crippled again with sadness, sorrow, and tears….but it didn’t consume me for long.
I have gotten better; I have grown.
I have learned how to cope and how to not let the clouded darkness take over me completely again.
And if I can heal, you can too.
In this healing series, I will share with you some of the tools, mechanisms, and techniques that I have used to get my light back.
These techniques will help calm your mind from toxic thoughts, help control your intense emotions, and they will help liberate you from darkness.
Just remember, never give up.
P.S. Give yourself a hug right now.
Seriously, do it.
P.P.S. You are worth love. You are loved.